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Time to take control

Do you ever feel a little bit lost? Are you waiting for a sign or someone to show you the way to eternal happiness? Me too!

This first blog post if a bit of a declaration of what got me here. I’m your usual 30 something career girl, who’d had her fair share of work dramas, relationship problems and money worries. In September 2015 I landed what I thought was my dream job, it turned out for various reasons it wasn’t. I left my ‘dream’ role feeling drained, anxious and in need of some rest. I’m a firm believer in everything happens for a reason, and leaving my last job to go freelance has lead me to where I am now (sitting in my kitchen writing my very first blog post).

I’ve spent the past few months looking at successful celebrities, friends, colleagues, business men and women and wondering what it is that they have that I don’t. OK, some of the above have large amounts of cash which can allow certain opportunities to open more easily than others, but that aside the one thing they seem to have (or not have) is a fear of failure. They probably have it, but they don’t let it swallow them up, they don’t worry about the judgment from others, and they just bloody well get on with it. In today’s social world, where everything is on a plate for everyone to see (whether it’s your friends baby with squashed banana around its mouth, or the latest self-obsessed selfie, with every filter under the sun on it) I sometimes spend more time thinking flicking through other people’s photos and posts thinking ‘I wish I could do that, but I’m not good enough’, than actually doing it.

So this is why I’ve set up a blog, it’s something I’ve wanted to do for so many years, and now it’s my new hobby and distraction. It’s also me taking back control and saying to myself ‘Come on girl! There’s no reason you can’t write a blog, ride a horse, open a business, cook a four-course dinner, pay off debts, get a new radiator, not eat cheese for a month*, take some awesome picture, land your actual dream job. Just stop the thinking and start the doing.’

Does anyone else find they spend more time thinking they can’t do something, rather than trying to do the one thing they spend so much time saying they can’t do? I’d love to hear your thoughts. What’s the one thing you’ve always wanted to do but are too scared to give it a go?

*Disclaimer: I love cheese far too much to ever give it up for a month.